Life Lessons

Yes, this is the first post for a long time about running. I became quite about this topic, but now I try to slowly get back into this activity. In 2017 I was a running freak. I ran every day for a whole month and also preached about running a lot. Everybody should try it and do morning runs, was my mantra back then. The YouTubers I watched and podcasters I listened, as well as writers whose stories I read (all about motivation, self improvement, success etc.
I’m an idiot. A stupid bastard. Really stupid. Because I needed some timeoff, I wished to be ill - knowing that my wishes are just very rarely come true. And what happened? Yes, my wish came true. [insert facepalm emoji here] Just one or two days after I came up with this horrible idea and decision, it catched me. I was just sitting in the lecture hall, listening to the lecturer, when stomach cramps hit me, and they hit me hard.
I recently joined an event in my hometown, which was focused on new technologies. I had the opportunity to give a small talk and I took it. First I was a bit scared, “What will the people think?”, “Do I have enough knowledge to give a talk?”, “I can’t speak good enough…”. But I also thought “You have to leave your comfort zone to grow.” And that’s what I did. I left my comfort zone to grow.
I don’t really like when my situation changes a lot and so I immediately started panicking when something happened last week. I feared about the consequences and all the things I have to due because of this. (I won’t tell you the problem, sorry.) But since then a few days passed and I actually realize, that things aren’t as worse as imagined. Sure, things are still not fun, but less complicated than I initially thought.
If I really want something, I try to search for a solution until I found it. Even if it takes me hours, days or weeks. Whether it’s a software problem or another issue. Often I just can’t accept not to find a solution. I need to run a program for university, which isn’t running well on Linux. I tried everything to make it run natively on my OS, but even after hours, I wasn’t able to get it compiling correctly.