Life

This year is coming to an end and so I want to take the chance to review the year and write down what happened this year. On the technical side as well as personally. Months Let me start with each month: January 2019 has started the same way the new decade will start too. I studied for exams, wrote exams and finally, after the exams, did some practical work in the company where I am doing my dual study.
A little over two months ago I got together with my best friend (whom I have known for several years) and since then my life has not been what it used to be. And I don't mean that negatively. Finally, there is something in life that is worth going through hard times, coping with stress, passing exams and so on. Finally a reason to actually plan the time and do the tasks instead of just procrastinating to have more time for nice things.
As I write this, it's still the 1st of November, but the 2nd is just around the corner. Those days, two years ago, were probably the worst of my life. Tomorrow, two years ago, my father died after a longer period of illness of about 2 years. Even though he was supposedly on the road to recovery, while I was on vacation with my mother and sister, there was an accident at the hospital and eventually he died just a short time before we could be there, although we've been trying to get back as soon as possible after we heard about it.
This semester I have two lectures each week (not in total obviously), each one of those taking 3 hours from 4pm to 7:15pm on Mondays and Tuesdays. Both are given by a professor with a strong accent and a sometimes little bit strange view of the world. I think I never wasted that much time before in my life. But I have no other option than just going there, doing all the homeworks.
If I had considered a year ago what my life might look like today, I would certainly have guessed something completely different from what is reality today. Life is full of surprises. Sometimes not so nice things happen that pull you down, take strength, raise doubts and let you lose hope. But sometimes also nice things happen that suddenly give life a whole new meaning, push you, make life more worth living and give you new motivation, strength and hope.
I sometimes write articles. On this blog. On my German blog. Not long time ago, I used to write on Medium. I already spent hours and hours of writing. After writing and publishing something new, I usually share it on social media. My fediverse account and Twitter most often too. But sometimes I am thinking: Is there just anyone getting some worth out of my posts? Is there someone who would even visit and read articles, if I don't spam my followers on social media?
For a few weeks now, I'm owner of a smart watch again. I used a smart watch some years ago (during the Android Wear 1.0 era), but stopped using it when my watch (the Sony SmartWatch 3) didn't receive updates anymore and was almost useless since all apps where just optimized for the Wear OS. Now I'm back with a Galaxy Watch. It's a pretty great smart watch. For one, I like that it's using Samsungs Tizen OS instead of Wear OS.
As you might have noticed, the frequency of new entries on this blog, or even the activity on my social media profiles, varies a lot. On some days I'm posting a lot. But then there are days with almost no activity at all. I'm currently in a working part of my dual study (where I go to the company working, instead of studying). In this part I have to do a practical project that involves coding something, but also everything else connected to it, like planing, writing etc.
When I wanted to create the file for todays blog post, my static blog system told me, there's already a post with the same post slug. That wondered me and I thought it must be an error. But it wasn't. I already wrote about “lack of motivation” more than a year ago. That just shows how much I struggle with motivation. At the moment I struggle a lot again. Currently I have to learn for exams.
Jan-Lukas Else
20 years old student who writes about everything he cares about.