Life

I am so grateful!

A little over two months ago I got together with my best friend (whom I have known for several years) and since then my life has not been what it used to be. And I don’t mean that negatively. Finally, there is something in life that is worth going through hard times, coping with stress, passing exams and so on. Finally a reason to actually plan the time and do the tasks instead of just procrastinating to have more time for nice things.
As I write this, it’s still the 1st of November, but the 2nd is just around the corner. Those days, two years ago, were probably the worst of my life. Tomorrow, two years ago, my father died after a longer period of illness of about 2 years. Even though he was supposedly on the road to recovery, while I was on vacation with my mother and sister, there was an accident at the hospital and eventually he died just a short time before we could be there, although we’ve been trying to get back as soon as possible after we heard about it.

Wasted life time

This semester I have two lectures each week (not in total obviously), each one of those taking 3 hours from 4pm to 7:15pm on Mondays and Tuesdays. Both are given by a professor with a strong accent and a sometimes little bit strange view of the world. I think I never wasted that much time before in my life. But I have no other option than just going there, doing all the homeworks.
If I had considered a year ago what my life might look like today, I would certainly have guessed something completely different from what is reality today. Life is full of surprises. Sometimes not so nice things happen that pull you down, take strength, raise doubts and let you lose hope. But sometimes also nice things happen that suddenly give life a whole new meaning, push you, make life more worth living and give you new motivation, strength and hope.
I sometimes write articles. On this blog. On my German blog. Not long time ago, I used to write on Medium. I already spent hours and hours of writing. After writing and publishing something new, I usually share it on social media. My fediverse account and Twitter most often too. But sometimes I am thinking: Is there just anyone getting some worth out of my posts? Is there someone who would even visit and read articles, if I don’t spam my followers on social media?