In order to relax Although I do like weekdays, Although I like to work, Although I do like, To get up in the morning, To do things, To think, To type into the keyboard, To talk in meetings. I also like to relax sometimes, to listen to music, to watch videos, to read books, to write messages, to eat delicious food, to meet people. I think relaxation is important. Also for the person who, like me, only feels good when he or she has something to do all the time, who can’t bear to be bored, unproductive, who writes an article at half past ten in the evening, just to have done something productive during the day.
The night before the funeral It’s the night before the funeral You can’t sleep You woke up at 4:00 in the morning nausea thoughts keep you from sleeping You consider what will be How to master the future How you can be strong I just lost my dad.
And the unique opportunity to value it There are people who live until they are over 100 years old. They live a happy life, in which there are rarely any particular lows, they never have the problem of having to worry about financial or physical security, they have children who are doing well and only leave the world’s light when they have already received a pension for decades. But for others, things are quite different.
Because the world doesn’t stop too The world doesn’t stop. Not because of this one person who has left the world, tore a deep hole in the lives of some other people. The other billions of people continue to pursue their professions, doing what they do every day. Every single day. And when you consider that you may not be the only one in this situation, but this happens daily, perhaps even hourly, this is hardly comforting, but it shows that life goes on.
Unable to say goodbye in time. Goodbye forever. I used to write about what I learned from my experiences (my view of success, what motivates me in the morning or what I learned from oversleeping). Now I’m going to write to process my newer experiences, to cope with the burden and to be able to sleep without puking. I don’t want to excite pity, or draw any other kind of attention to myself.