This Happened To Me
I’m an idiot. A stupid bastard. Really stupid. Because I needed some timeoff, I wished to be ill - knowing that my wishes are just very rarely come true. And what happened? Yes, my wish came true. [insert facepalm emoji here]
Just one or two days after I came up with this horrible idea and decision, it catched me. I was just sitting in the lecture hall, listening to the lecturer, when stomach cramps hit me, and they hit me hard.
I recently joined an event in my hometown, which was focused on new technologies. I had the opportunity to give a small talk and I took it.
First I was a bit scared, “What will the people think?”, “Do I have enough knowledge to give a talk?”, “I can’t speak good enough…”. But I also thought “You have to leave your comfort zone to grow.” And that’s what I did. I left my comfort zone to grow.
I always didn’t like to hear my own voice, because I thought it sounds strange. So always procrastinated starting a podcast. I finally overcame my fear. And it actually feels good.
I always had that idea in my mind of starting a podcast, I also started recording one once, but I screw it. I didn’t like my voice.
But this time, I just tried it again and after hearing the voice some time, I just thought, why care about other’s opinions, just do it.
I like podcasts. I really like podcasts. But it’s only a few days since I rediscovered how much I like them.
Like a week ago my friend Zan started his own podcast (together with another guy). Because I follow his work I also listened to the first two episodes. Their podcast is called “Pocket Friend” and they talk about all things mobile. A topic I’m really interested in.
Also one of my favorite YouTubers recently started podcasting.
I don’t really like when my situation changes a lot and so I immediately started panicking when something happened last week. I feared about the consequences and all the things I have to due because of this. (I won’t tell you the problem, sorry.)
But since then a few days passed and I actually realize, that things aren’t as worse as imagined. Sure, things are still not fun, but less complicated than I initially thought.
If I really want something, I try to search for a solution until I found it. Even if it takes me hours, days or weeks. Whether it’s a software problem or another issue. Often I just can’t accept not to find a solution.
I need to run a program for university, which isn’t running well on Linux. I tried everything to make it run natively on my OS, but even after hours, I wasn’t able to get it compiling correctly.
When you’re writing just to publish your thoughts, when you aren’t forced to cover specific topics, when you’re totally free about each post, it may happen often, that you start but also delete many drafts.
I often have ideas. Sometimes I think my ideas are great, so I start to write them down. But then I get interrupted or I rethink about my thoughts and come to the conclusion, that they aren’t as good as I was thinking before.
I’m a student and only have a small budget, so I usually think twice (or three or four times) before buying expensive things like electronic devices. Often I’m choosing cheap devices, because they don’t cost much. But often they have some problems, because they are cheap.
If you now try to buy a new laptop for less than 300€, you usually get a really bad device with like 4 GB of RAM and damn slow HDDs, if not only eMMC storage.
Lectures at the university start next week. So, since the beginning of the week, I have been thinking intensively about the problem of how to get a cheap but not too cheap convertible so that I can do my studies almost without paper.
Convertibles are definitely not cheap and I have a quite limited budget. Not because I don’t have the money, but because I don’t want to spend more than 500€ on one device.
You get much of your knowledge by doing mistakes. Here are some things I would have done differently if I had my present knowledge:
1. Choose another second foreign language In school we were able to decide between Latin and French as a second foreign language (besides English). I decided for Latin, because everyone told me, French grammar is more difficult and Latin is more logical (I preferred logical things, because I also liked maths).