I’m an idiot. A stupid bastard. Really stupid. Because I needed some timeoff, I wished to be ill - knowing that my wishes are just very rarely come true. And what happened? Yes, my wish came true. [insert facepalm emoji here] Just one or two days after I came up with this horrible idea and decision, it catched me. I was just sitting in the lecture hall, listening to the lecturer, when stomach cramps hit me, and they hit me hard.
I recently joined an event in my hometown, which was focused on new technologies. I had the opportunity to give a small talk and I took it. First I was a bit scared, “What will the people think?”, “Do I have enough knowledge to give a talk?”, “I can’t speak good enough…”. But I also thought “You have to leave your comfort zone to grow.” And that’s what I did. I left my comfort zone to grow.
I always didn’t like to hear my own voice, because I thought it sounds strange. So always procrastinated starting a podcast. I finally overcame my fear. And it actually feels good. I always had that idea in my mind of starting a podcast, I also started recording one once, but I screw it. I didn’t like my voice. But this time, I just tried it again and after hearing the voice some time, I just thought, why care about other’s opinions, just do it.
I like podcasts. I really like podcasts. But it’s only a few days since I rediscovered how much I like them. Like a week ago my friend Zan started his own podcast (together with another guy). Because I follow his work I also listened to the first two episodes. Their podcast is called “Pocket Friend” and they talk about all things mobile. A topic I’m really interested in. Also one of my favorite YouTubers recently started podcasting.
I don’t really like when my situation changes a lot and so I immediately started panicking when something happened last week. I feared about the consequences and all the things I have to due because of this. (I won’t tell you the problem, sorry.) But since then a few days passed and I actually realize, that things aren’t as worse as imagined. Sure, things are still not fun, but less complicated than I initially thought.